beastlyone

Well shit the bed! Back to check in all all y'all!

I met the most interesting person @ gothic_babes but I lost her contact information. Then 80 jackasses with nothing to say made it impossible to find her. You are some boring fucks!

If it weren't for gothic_babes I wouldn't feel the need but here I still am!

Look at those entries, look at my comments at gothic_babes! That's why you should STAY ON YOUR MEDS! Sorry folks!

Done 4 sure people r jerks here

out of here for good LJ sux. one last check for comments in a.m. and that's it.

Hate myself today. Yay.

Fuck the world, fuck LJ , fuck YOU if you are not my son. He is all I have left. Fuck your pictures, fuck your entries, fuck your comments FUCK OFF!

I think they are happier without me. If court goes badly and i can't see them or they don't want me to I will b in Vegas or Pao Robles in a week. Lisa and Melvin have both said "Come out and stay, and Melvin meant STAY, as in live at The Complex as long as I contribute. I may finally b a hippy among hippies. I hope not.

That kid that got hit by the car ..... that's why i hug you every time you leave. Hope U R doing OK

pay phone @ school? call at lunch i will b here and answer 762-3985

Love U

Blaaaaaah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Check out

http://www.deoxy.org/

http://www.fusionanomaly.net/

the only education you will ever actually use

Coal Chamber helped me write another message to CWSL

Tyler's Song


Go son
If you get up but they strap you around
Then just remember
That I will always be there
When I say to you daddy loves you understand
I'm out in the real world again I'm trying
Raise your guard again
They don't give a damn
Don't compromise your ideals for anyone else
Respect your mom and always think of her first
When I say to you daddy loves you understand
I'm out in the real world again I'm trying
Raise your guard again
They don't give a damn
Son, if the sun don't shine
I'll try like hell to make light from the dark for you
Raise your guard again
They don't give a damn
Go son

Never let anyone tell you what to think!!!!!!!!! Love You

Another day, another.....well, day, although I did make $70.00 today. Now if only I had my sons or a girlfriend to spend it on. Found Kayleigh at LJ yesterday she is EVERYWHERE seems like a very extraordinary young woman.

Glad CWSL likes playing with other people now, it helps to meet someone who can play! If you do not have confidence in someone else's playing it is hard not to worry about THEM screwing up so much that YOU screw up. Kerry and Connor R the only 2 I can play with 4 sure. Trish is a percussionist so if she goofs I don't hear it.

Love to you all, especially CWSL miss you

The most beautiful evil girls in the world r here!!! Bware adult material sometimes

http://community.livejournal.com/gothic_babes/profile

Hopefully I will be able to go to the talent show we will know for wure on the 15th. Got a lot of Cradle Of Filth, 69 Eyes, Skinny Puppy, Killing Joke, Children Of Bodom , heavy stuff from Viva La Bam.

Got strings on the Gibson and may get a pickup for it, have met an amazing percussionist and may see if Kerry wants to do Fireworks either just with me with us. Want to do Alice in Chains, Stone Temple Pilots, stuff like that if just Kerry, if Kerry & Trish then Sylvian, Eno, Crimson, etc.

email me crowley.beastie@mad.scientist.com or aleister_beastie@hotmail.com I can recieve but not reply

post here or xanga

I miss my boys I have little to do with my life when they are not around.


love you so much

To my boys, form Danial Lanois and me


You wake up and there's something there tugging at your sleeve
It's not the pitter-patter of the one in your dreams
Held on by the chain, the unbreakable chain
Held there by the chain, the unbreakable chain

You walk and you know that the wind is not passing you by
It's speaking and you listen and the tears don't come out when you cry
cry cry cryin won't break the unbreakable chain
cryin won't break the unbreakable chain

It's thirty years ago and you live with your decision
You talk to him in a prayer - you send out your transmission
But a prayer won't break the unbreakable chain,
Your prayers won't break the unbreakable chain

Your baby's not yours but he walks the streets of your city
He wants to know you, there's no self pity
It's pulling at your heart, the unbreakable chain
pulling at your heart, with the unbreakable chain

And you, you put an ad in the paper - it's foolish but maybe
maybe he'll see cause he's searching for mama mi
oh mama here, mama feel the unbreakable chain
mama feel the unbreakable chain

You can't believe that it's now, it's turned itself around
You're frightened of the way that you look, but you meet him there in town
Oh, the joy and the fear of the unfailable pain
The joy and the fear of the unfailable pain

He stares at you and you step back and no words are spoken
You say hello to your boy and he says 'Mama you've awoken'
ah, yes you have broken the unbreakable chain -
yes you have broken the unbreakable chain

You have broken the unbreakable chain
yeah, you have broken the unbreakable chain.

From the looks of thing at cwsl's l.j. he has had problems posting and possibly accessing, nothing new on the xanga. Added to xdolly_doomx (poisoned-skin) friends list today, felt good about that. I stumbled across her totally by accident and she is a real, REAL, person.

Since Kerry has told me he is my friend no matter what I think I'm getting an acoustic/electric and try to do acoustic stuff with him whether Bill wants to or not. I think we could work up a set that doesn't need the bongos. I want to do newer old stuff that's easy to sing, Tool, Alice In Chains, Stone Temple Pilots, etc. and make some easy $$$$$$$ selling drinks to balding generation x guys like myself. I have also met an excellent percussionist I'm going to play with for a while before Kerry even meets her, then perhaps the three of us could get something going.

Same old same old, working, thinking of my kids when i can allow it, sometimes when I can't. Wish I could tell them that I love them.